That's my new monitor.. 'Christine III' and my DS with the casing that I want to show you guys!

TA-DA!



My sis bought it for me. Yay~!

Beside that, did you see my desk? There's cheap Naruto & Sasuke with their school uniform (only +7 bucks I think..) and a Yamapi pin!! Search it! xD

It's 12 am in my place now. So..

Happy Birthday Ohno Satoshi~!

I know nobody read this, but I still want to let it out from my chest. xD

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Totally unrelated, but I'll watch New Moon today~ I hope I won't fell asleep like my best friend did. Ahaha. New Moon here I come!!

P.S why did Meyer make vampires glitters anyway?

I've read this last month.. I want to post it in my blog, but kinda decided that it's not appropriate. So I'll post it here, where I can see it again with no one else knowing it, because I know there's no one who cares in here. xD

Let's just say I'm a bit torn between traumatized and amazed.

davidkawena on deviantArt - look at his 'Disney Heroes' gallery.. he draw the boys in Disney movies.. with only their underwear. And it's so sexy and weird. Weird because they're only a cartoon character, so why did they looked so hot?! And davidkawena really know the style of the characters. Bravo.

And the maker of those pictures is really excited about The Princess and the Frog movie. Makes me excited too. I love Disney movies!! It's going out this month! I can't wait~!

It's almost the end of the year, I only got a month to make the choice. Either I'm going to college or not, which college I'm going to, am I ready for college or not, blah blah blah. I'm panicking, confused, and feel like shit.

That's why I'm going to distract myself with lots of crappy HP/Twilight fics and lots of shota djs.

Can't run from the world forever though, the thought of it makes me sad and more depressed now. D: Must. read. more. to. distract. self. again.

I just found out that I become an admin in a forum that I'm quite active in. Yay~ Finally something to be proud of! Something that I love. Wheeeee

Please visit us:

Harry Potter Crossover Collection

-Ore no Naruto/redfeathersgirl

because wordpress can't embed this.. D:<

and because I don't want to forget this link.

Fawkes/Harry rocks!!

The world was playing with me. It's not enough that I got this Ohmiya thing in my head, now there's a bigger problem that involve my daily life.

This was supposed to be a good day! Tomorrow is my birthday! So, why is this happening to me?!

Is Sweet seventeen supposed to be depressing and totally annoying? Sucking all my happiness?!

I was so happy when this morning my mom told me that she want to buy me a DS that I want from last year. I begged and begged, and finally.. she want to buy it. Then, the terror came. My sis called and asked things. She got angry and then proceed to cut all ties with me. "Happy Sweet 17, hope you like your DS, cuz you just lost a sister," she said.

WHAT THE?!

I mean, if that was her, it's alright. And if it's someone else, they can't?! I mean.. what a self centered person! I knew she was like that, but not this much. I thought. But I was wrong.

Why? Why she was like that? When she bought N95, I was okay. When she bought iPhone, I was okay. Jealous, for sure.. but I didn't get mad. At all.

Because she plan something for my sweet seventeen when she thought that my birthday going to be sucked and then she notice that I got something, doesn't mean that she can cut all ties! I didn't know she was going to surprised me. She didn't ask me where I was going.

So a DS going to be our fight?

Today, I got this nightmare. Sort of. It's my birthday, but I was sick. And then my aunts pressure me to go to this party. It's hard to left the bed (in some kind of ugly house). My body was so heavy, I was sweating everywhere, and I can't find my clothes. There were only the everyday-clothes. I was running and running, everyone waited for me. And then I've to came back because I remember where my clothes is. Running again. And BAM! I woke up. That was exhausting.

Maybe that was a sign? That this birthday is going to be sucked big time? Well, now I thought so.

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If I sound like a girly-girl, I'm not. I don't like pink. Not really.

I'm going to ignore some things, and search some funny fics. Angst makes me want to cry right now. Again.

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EDIT:

My sis was actually planning a surprise for me.

I bought the DS the day before my birthday, so.. she was ignoring me for a day and I can't sleep in her room (duh. and i got a nightmare because of it). I thought something like that (that was she's actually wanting to surprise me, not mad at me..) but quickly dismissed it. But I'm still relieved when it's true. I cried when she come out from her room carrying my birthday cake and singing 'Happy Birthday to you'.

:'(

I never felt like this before. Well, not this strong. It hurts every time I watch one of them near somebody else, or with girls. The hurting still intact even when I was ready to sleep. Maybe because it's more real than everything I've ever seen? I don't know. But I'm sure of one thing.

I love Ohno so much that it hurts.

[Wow. I can't believe I can feel that way.. I knew love can be like that, but I never felt it before.. this is quite shocking]

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It hurts because I don't want Ohno with girls. It hurts because I don't want Ohno dominate someone.

And it's not allowing me to sleep!

This Ohno madness (or more like Ohmiya or a little bit Juntoshi and Tohma/Ohno) followed me everywhere! I can't stop searching for more Ohno! Even my fandom now mad at me! I neglect my fanfics for Arashi.

Is this bad? -depressed-

YAY!! B. OBAMA WON!! -cheer-

Did you know that at 1967-1971, he was schooled in Jakarta, Indonesia? I live there!! Whee~

He's the first African American president. Oprah voted for him. I don't know much cuz I don't watch TV or read the newspapers, but I heard that he's excellent for the job. (President)

CONGRATS, Obama!!

That's so beautiful.. T.T

You should read Complex. A beautifully made yaoi manga. The story's so touching.. -remembering it and then cry again- I CAN NOT STOP CRYING!! TT ^ TT

But it's worth the tears

Edit: it's actually the internet's fault.. when I changed my userpic, her's was changed too. So.. yeah.. -sheepish-

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Someone stole my userpict!!

WOW!!

I feel flattered. Cuz I never been recognized before. Hahaha. But I'm angry too. I already put 'ORE NO NARUTO' in it, but this person still make it as her own. Maybe it's because it means 'My Naruto'? Here's the pict:



Nobody ever stole something like this from me before, so.. I'm soooo judging that person right now.. Haha. Poor you.. -pity you and then get mad- !@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*()!!!

If I put it somewhere that everybody can use, it's alright, I even get joy by it, but this wasn't like that. This is MY userpic! Can't that person made her own? B*tch! Damn you, ElemenTalia!!

I've made a new blog, it's in Indonesian.. so if you don't understand.. then.. GOOD!! Cuz it's full of my rantings and crazy/totally random stuff. Haha. XD

http://redfeathersgirl.wordpress.com/

WOOHOO!!

Since May, I can't get online (and I just found out that it's all just because a stupid broken cable!). I'm so sorry for the lack of update on deviantart or fanfiction. (It's not like I'm popular anyway..) There's so much things that happened around me. If it's not because the modem, the computer, or the situation (busy). There are people who were dieing too. Three in two months. One was so gruesome, and the other was just so.. tragic.

Journal

13 March - still (now): Raise my house 50-60 centimeters.

20-something May: The markup (increase of price?) of BBM - Bahan Bakar Minyak (Material Burn Oil?) on Indonesia

22 May: Watch the replay of American Idol before the final 'cause I missed the Live.

David Cook x David Archuleta!!

Quote from Hanbun no Tsuki: Hot + Cute = Delicious

It's a pity that FF.net don't have that genre.. (American Idol)

1 June: A big demonstration (protest) for the thing above.

My dad's friend's son died because the machine in the factory where he work, exploded. He.. well.. he's too. His head was missing. His lungs were gone (blown up?), his blood was splashed on the wall. And of course, he work in his girlfriend's father's factory, ironic.. no?

P.S he's only 17 or so..

4 June: Small Tsunami (predicted), but fortunately it's not true. Well.. at my place anyway..

11 July: Near my house, there's a murder.

A woman (who's young and doesn't- I mean- didn't look like a woman just had a baby at all) was killed by her own housemaids. It's planned by all of them. The baby sitter for her baby, left the house even if she knew that her employer was going to be killed.

They bring a man inside, he knocked her head with a wood that has a nail on it. BANG! And then he strangle her (her neck), then.. he sink her head in the tub. Just to make sure she's dead, I think.

It's from the inside.. It's so tragic..

And then there's her brother in law (younger, only 17) who's in the house and notice there's a BANG sound in the house. So he quickly gone offline and check on it.

Obviously, he was killed.

I don't know what happen next, but eventually the police capture all of them (even the baby sitter).

The mother of that woman, is my mom's friend and neighbor. They went to the same church. She told me that the woman is so innocent, nice, and very lucky to have a wealthy husband. But now.. I'm not so sure that she's lucky..

I'm moving my FF journal to this place..

Journal

27 Oct: I have to thank my friend for making me in love with HPSS pairing..

21 Oct: Dumbie is gay.. Oh My..

16 Oct: I'm in love with WyattHarry (Charmed and HP Crossover..) -sigh dreamily-

2 Oct: Is it possible for girls to get more and more perverted each year? Cuz I am..

19 Sept: Yay!! Got 8 reviews (for not even 500 words, that's a lot..)!! And 6 of them are positive! (1 is disgusted by the thought of HarryNaruto.. and 1 is.. I dunno.. she told me that I can take it as positive or negative.. so I think it's a little bit between..)

18 Sept: Published My brother. A Harry/Naruto fic. Hehehe! It's short and I'm happy to get flames!

7 Sept: Check out Beautifully Deranged and Sweet Puppy!! They're awesome Fenrir/Harry story! Expecially Sweet Puppy!! Dark Gifts is pretty awesome too! It's a Voldie/Harry story!

5 Augt - 5 Sept: Computer died.. No internet for me.. It was HELL

July 31: For the past 2 weeks, I've been in love with Hikaru no Go and Prince of Tennis fanfics! Expecially Hikaru no Go! That's so cool!! KYAA!! Hikaru is mute, Hikaru is Revenge, Hikaru is kidnapped by Ogata, and many more! You can check out my fav! Just click 'Category' and then you scroll it to 'Hikaru no Go'! KYAA!!

Of course, I like PoT too.. RyogaRyoma, TezuRyoFuji, MomoRyo, AtoRyo.. Oh my God!! -drool- And the moment I like the fics, I search the djs!! KYAA!! DOUJINSHIS RULES!!

July 22: Harry Potter is quite dissapointing.. And I absolutely hate the ending!! ARGH!! I can't read to much Het!! ARGH!!

July 20: Okayyy... I absolutely HATE school!! ARGHH!! Oh! And even if I don't read or watch One Piece, I found out that ZoroLuffy is awesome! And cute too!

Wow.. that was weird.. I read Pirates of the Caribbean FanFic, The Blessed Curse.. And I read that Will is pregnant.. because of Jack.. Oh.. My.. God.. I was shocked!! I never thought of that! And I don't really like it.. It was like.. reading HarryDraco.. with Draco as the submissive.. I don't like it.. at all. But I think my friend, Hanbun no Tsuki will like it.. She always like something that is opposite to me..

July 14: I've watched Harry Potter.. it's really different from the novel.. And I'm kinda dissapointed how short it was.. And how Harry's hair cut is so.. distubing and about Ron.. he's kinda got a smaller role.. he's not speaking a lot.. and Hermione appear and speak more often! I don't like her.. And Cho.. that was supposed to be in Hogsmeade, and it's supposed to be a disaster!! I hate Draco.. he appear less and less.. but not to worry.. he would appear more next time! Cuz he's about to be Death Mucher!! I mean.. Eater.. Death Eater..

There was so much things that are not in the novel and very different from the novel.. and I was very dissapointed when I saw the 12 Grimmauld Place.. But I was pleased to see that Tonks and Luna are pretty.. Tee-hee..

My friend was very perverted too.. Even I; The Perverted Girl haven't thought of that cuz I was too serious watching the movie.. but my friend did thought of that.. When Harry was taught Occlumency by Snape, he was saying that he's tired and want to rest.. and Snape said that he can't rest and they should do that again and again.. And my friend thought about something perverted.. You can think about what she thinks too right? Tee-hee..

July 7 & 8: Went to see the place looks like and bought some things in Japan Evolution and went again to see the Cosplay on the next day (with Hanbun no Tsuki! My best pal). And I really love the Nakahara Sunako!! When I took a photo with her, she was appearing behind my back! Just like the character! Like a ghost! But she's so pretty!!

July 4: Shun Oguri play as Sano Izumi in Hana Kimi!! Yeah!! And that girl from Nobuta wo Produce and Kurosagi play as Mizuki!! Kyaa!!

July 2: At June 30, I was finally home!! That Dharma Camp was a dread!! ARGHHH!!! I'm not even Buddhist, dammit!! I just copy anyone like an idiot.. ARGHH!! It was HELL!! But as time pas by, I was finally knew the traditions and .. everything.. like how to pray, how to eat, how to sit..

And the good part is.. I found 2 people that's quite interesting!! 1 that looks like Shun Oguri when he was little (he's around 172 cm, while Shun is 182 cm), the mouth and hair.. and he's quite skinny too! And 1 with 'Merlin' as her name!! Hahaha! You know.. Merlin from Harry Potter.. Hahaha!

June 21: Well, that day.. was a disaster! I got sick cuz I haven't slept that day.. and the day before.. so, I just watched F4 that day..

OH! And I read TaichixDaisuke fic! A Digimon Fanfiction! That's hot!! Hahaha!

June 17: Yeah!! So many movies out there!! -drool- I can't wait to see the Harry Potter and The Order of Phoenix!! -squeal- Of course, I'll watch Fantastic Four 2 (Hahaha! F4.. reminded me of F4 from Meteor Garden and Hana Yori Dango) and Shrek 3 tomorrow! -squeal- Can't wait!! Ahh~ I miss my friends..

Oh yeah.. I got this new inspiration, cuz I love X-over right now.. I want to make HarryNaruto!! Yeah!! But please.. be patience.. Cuz it's easy to think but hard to write.. Haha! I can't find the right words for the fic.. Haha.. That's why I haven't update.. Tee-hee!

Ooh! And Bingo is going cuter and everyday!

AHH~ JohnnyReed and VictorReed (Fantastic 4), HarryPeter (Spiderman), NathanPeter (Heroes) "I love another incest!!" are so hot!! HOT COUPLES!! -squeal- -massive nosebleed- You should take a look at that pairings!! Kyaa!! -squeal- It makes me squeals when I remember it! Haha! I'm sooo perverted!

The authors that made me love the pairings are MorningHell and toestastegood!

May 22: Uploaded Bingo's photoes in PhotoBucket!! (Sleepin' with Laptop) (2 Bingo) (Close Up) (In a Wedding Dress)

May 20: So in love with Remnants of a Forgotten Dream!! And Hitsugaya!! I'll give you the Hitsugaya that I drew!!

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/55695696/

May 17: Oh how I love tentacles!! And S&M!! And cross dressing! Yes people, I'm a perv! And I'm PROUD of it!! Aarinfantasy is the BEST!!! So many doujinshis, so little time..

May 7: I'm searching for.. friends who loved the same thing(s) like me! I already found one, obsessivesyndrome! But it's a pity that she didn't like HP that much.. You should read her fics, it's awesome! And I'm searching for more friends! -searching like crazy- Just to tell you, I'm crazy! I love Yaoi, Incest (but not ItaSasu), Angst, Rape, Torture, Twisted minds (like killing.. -splash- -splat- blood and body parts everywhere! Muahaha! -evil laugh-), and of course Dark AND Powerful main chara (Dark!Harry, Dark!Naruto, Hollow!Ichigo, and many more). So, who wants to be my friends? And of course, you must look at my fav pairings! Cuz it's.. not normal..

April 30: Everything is OK, so I made LJ account.. I'm new and I dunno anything about LJ, so.. yeah.. orenonaruto

April 25: The alerts still won't work.. so I waste my time in.. uploading pictures in deviant art.. Please watch mine!! My account: redfeathersgirl

April 22: Did you see how lucky Indonesian Idol was?! They go to Japan when the Sakura was blooming!! Argh!! I'm so jealous!!

April 14: I think I'm sick!!! I started to like NARUTO HAREM??!! OMG!!! YUCKS!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT?! I think I need more YAOI reading.. so, you better wait for a little longer.. (and at April 24, I got exams) and.. well.. I want to thank Viperflamer for making such good fics that made me like Naruto Harem even if I still can't believe that..

February 14: My sis got a black pomeranian dog for her birthday from her friend! Kyaa! His name is Bingo! It's a short name from baBINGOrok POXamania (if you are Indonesian you know what I mean, if you are not, it means pig that snores. POX is from Pig, dOg, and foX), he's cute and his fur is silkier than mine and my sis! Haha..

My rabbit; Justin (I named him Cameron but when I checked he's not a she.. Yup, people! It's from Justin Timberlake and Cameron Diaz! I bought him BEFORE they broke up) is a.. gluttony.. (hm..) He basically eats everything! He ate dog food! When Bingo didn't want to eat, he ate them! Wow, I had two interesting pets.. Don't you agree?

I'm lazy.. I will continue my story after exams are over..

NOW I'M REALLY SURE THAT I'M A SLYTHERIN!! (I took a test before that's different from this.. from another site.. and I got Slytherin too!!)

Edit: I was an amateur.. I didn't know much about Yaoi at that time, so yeah.. I just found a yaoi movie. I'm exited as hell. This is my first. Ah.. the good time. The vid can't play play anymore though

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OH MY GOD!! SEXY YAOI ALERT!! Hahaha..

Well, I'm searching for yaoi videos.. cuz aarinfantasy at my place is currently down.. and I found Sensitive Pornograph!! Yay!!

You can look in here:


and this is the part 2.. it's about a guy that is a pet-sitter and was told by someone to take car his rabbit; Aki-chan.. But that rabbit ain't a rabbit.. if you know what I mean.. Just open it yourself! Cuz I can't put it in here.. Error.. whatever.. And this is the uncensored part!! Yummy!!

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x1yxby_sensitive-pornograph-2-vosta-uncens

The artwork is great, awesome! And the seiyuu(s) are great too! Nicely done!

Team 7 Edited Version by ~redfeathersgirl on deviantART

"Hardcore porn" - You are oh so wild
Take What kind of fucker are you? today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.</p>

I think this test is awesome, but not the pict!


Phoenix
Take What Animagus form would you take? today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.</p>

Yeah!! I'm a phoenix!! How cool is that!


You're the bullet!!
Take What sex toy am I? today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.</p>

Well, that's.. HOT!!


You're Hello Kitty!
Take Which sanrio character are you? today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.</p>

Yeah!! I'm the famous Hello Kitty!! Aww.. I want to be Cinnamoroll though..